Its not that im weak.........not even you can save me from myself

Everyday when I wake up I hope for the best.  Everyday I want to see the beauty in people.  I want to see deep in their soul just by brushing by their arm.  I guess I am desperate to find some kind of good left in this world.  I have had my share of terrible experiences in this lifetime but I still have a heart.  A heart that wants to move on but sometimes needs a little help.  I don't feel like I am weak but sometimes I get caught up in the moment.  I leave my heart open.  This is my fault for letting you in.  In my mind everyone gets a new start, a new chance everyday to start over.  Am I wrong to feel this way?  Am I living in some kind of fantasy world?  I guess so.  Honestly I don't care!  I plan on living my life looking for the beauty in all things.  I guess I want ever one I see to walk away with part of me. Being a photographer allows me to see the beauty in everything.  When I take those pictures everything in the world stops.....for those few moments everything is beautiful.  There is not hate, no judgement, no depression, no hurt.  I live my life for moments like these.  I think that it is my photography and my son that keep me going.  They are the only real things in my life.  Without these things I would see the world for what it really is.....and then not even you can save me from myself.